Sunday, February 05, 2006
::Its Over::Well. ya. our relationship had blown off already. honestly. it made a big impact on me. im hurt. deeply hurt. i felt a sharp knife poking through my heart. Anyway. i must move on. i knoe. i have to. i have received many care n concern from my frenz. i reali appreciate it. i knoe there are still many people out there care for me. i juz need time to forget him. im trying real hard. well. frankly speaking. i reali did my part. i put every effort in this relationship. But all i received back is just this type of ending. The more i love him. The more hurt i get from him. It's over. I did something toopid todae. i called him. ended up. just get to know another shocking news. i am indeed damn hurt. my heart bleeds. y am i so foolish to call him again. and ended up to know something that i dun wanna knoe again. I need to occupy myself with many many outings, activities and doing more things so that i would not think so much abt it. I wan to knoe more frenz. I wan to lead a better and happier life. I want to forget all those bad memories. I just wan to be happy. Knowing the truth is hurting. But i rather to know the truth n get hurt rather than being keep in the dark. Perhaps. Times can prove everything. Honestly, i cannot concentrate doing my stuff. I havent been doing any homework. I had been thinking too much stuff. i knoe i shouldnt like tt. but i juz cannot control. I reali suffered. Can someone pls help me. Bring me to somewhere i can find my happiness. As ppl said. Distance relatioinship is hard to maintain. I agreed to it. I tried my best. But i cannot physicaly by his side. That is jus an excuse. if u reali love someone. no matter where is he/she. u would wait for her. and no matter who enter ur life. u will not be bothered. u will still stick to ur own partner. I am tired. real tired. I so much so wanted to leave behind all those sad memories. but i couldnt. i believe after some time. i will recovered and move on. Now. i do understands that love hurts. The feelings is undescriable. I juz forced myself not to call him. not to think about it. I knoe. there is no future for us anymore. its over. ended. this 16 months and 16 days being together is over. this is the fact. i muz accept it. i do enjoyed those times being with him in the past. But as i said. thats the past already. i mus look forward. but. action speaks louder than words. I need time to heal.From the first day i met him was on the 15th of may 2004. Our Journey started on 18th September 2004. And we ended it on 3rd of February 2006. Those happy n sad moments will be kept in my memories onli. He is just once the part of my life. I must move on. There are many better things waiting for me to do. Do i love him? well. im trying hard to forget him. He will find his happiness and i will find my own happiness too. Our journey Ended ....
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