Tuesday, February 07, 2006
*Moving on*Well. reali thx ppl who tagged, sms and leave a piece of advise for me. im reali glad and appreciate it. well. its over. As someone mentioned b4 that. in a relationship. its onli ended up in 2 suitation. Sad but true. its the Breaking off suitation for me. I had a long talked with him on phone last nitez. talked from aussie time from 1am to 5am. well. ya. after this talk. i talked everything out. its the fact that its over. In this call. i did not hoping for any patch or wad. Not at all. I juz stating wad i reali wanna said to him. No more shouting. No more screaming. No more crying. Im numb le. I let him knoe who i felt. I had done my best. After this talk. I am stronger to overcome this. I dunno why too. Perhaps. Letting go is the only way. and no point sticking to someone who is not worth my love anymore. Indeed im deeply hurt. Frankly speaking. ppl may say tt im toopid. im crazy. im still love blind. but i decided to put away aside. no point hating him too. coz the more i hate him. the more hurt n suffer i would be. I let him knoe tt too. In the whole conversation. I did not cry at all. But he is the one who kept crying from the start to the end of the call. haa. weird but true. anyway. talked many things out. I knoe he is under stress. Though i knoe this is juz a part of an excuse. but no pt le. I am tired. Get to sleep onli at 5am. when i have to wake up at 7am. ! .. LOL.. i did woke up. but cant stand it. and carried on sleeping. sleep til 835am !.. oh shit. haha. quick change n went off. coz i have a class which starts at8.55am. luckily was on time. LOL. fast eh.. ! .. hahaa. anyway. On the journey to sch. while walking damn fast. i kept on recite "Stop thinking. its over. Dun think anymore." i did managed to do it. Im trying hard. and accepting the facts.I shouldnt rely on his phone calls anymore. No more. I juz wan to lead a stress-less life. I juz dun wan to talk about this topic anymore. No pt scolding n saying him le. Just wan to move on. yesh. i wanna move on. I believed i can do it one day. I can. yes. i can. I juz felt much relieved talking last nite. although i knoe the outcome is still the same. So. im gonna start afresh le !.. =))Action do speaks louder than words. I do think of him sometimes. but i quickly knock off the thinking straight away. Anyway. Went out with kelly, corinna, leon n kelly bf last nitez to crown. hehhee. watched fireworks. oh man. its damn nice. i must say tt. its nicer than sg de. Opss. =X .. but true la. hee. i did recorded it down. Ooo. then went to food carnival and watched the singing competition. oHh. haha. one of the competitors is cute la. LOL. i do admired ppl esp guys who have a nice vocal and sings very well. who knoes one day. someone will play a guitar and sings for me. OoO. LOL. its kinda romantic. But. yesterday the theme of the competition is to sing love sad songs la. gosh. kinda emotional. hee. anyway. i reali enjoyed myself much last nitez. Thx them for accompaning me. i knoe u all wan mi to go out to relac myself. thx. reali appreciate that too. Went back about 11pm plus then chatted with sis and called him le. Hahaa. after sch. went back to have a nap. gosh. indeed was tiring la. economic lesson .. im gonna doze off soon. LOL.. slept from 710pm til 10 plus. haha. sis keep on shouting and ask mi to wake up la. coz i suppose to wake up at 8pm to do my hw.. LOL .. well. Just wan to post this entry so that. ppl who care and worry about me not to worry much. im fine. im alright. thx thx thx. i love u all lots. muackk .. =))::Uploaded pics to Photobucket. But having technical problem. damn. think blog spot is reali having some problems. Yesterday already changed my layout. but changed back again. CRAZY. then todae img pro. hmm. better manintance it fast man. hee. =) ::
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